I've had back trouble since my last year of college. After about five years of pain off and on, I started having back spasms. As the years passed, I started having them every six to eight months. I eventually had a couple that were so bad I couldn't walk and I ended up spending the night in the hospital. Roughly seven years ago, I was diagnosed with spinal degeneration (stage 2). It's just something that I've learned to live with.
Which brings us to the here and now. I'm not having a full spasm, but my back has been locked up and incredibly painful since Friday of last week. The pain is rather intense and constant. I can't do anything without pain. Hell, rolling over in my sleep wakes me up. Coughing or sneezing makes me wince. I'm so tired of being in pain all the time. I've been trying to do some simple stretches, but the only ones I've found are too hard to do because of my weight. I can't find anything modified enough to give me a worthwhile stretch.
I'm finding the pain is affecting my concentration and focus. I brought an empty lunch bag to work today. The last hour of my shift I was hungry and in pain and all I wanted to do was go home and order a pizza, then eat the whole thing. I'm home. I made my brown rice breakfast thing I posted about a few days ago. I still want pizza, but I'm not going to order it. I'm just going to go to bed and try all over again tomorrow. I don't want to fall totally off the wagon, but it's really hard right now.
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